New Years resoDUtion

Been thinking a lot lately about what i really want for for my life over the next year. I've decided my New Years resolution will be to be true to myself and to my heart. It feels like I've been deceiving myself about who i really am and who i want to be. I try to not hurt people and be the soft place they can land but it sort of takes a toll on you, you now, the people landing smack dab on top of you all the time. You tend to get crushed. I want to finally not have to worry whether someone is going to kill someone else just because i'm not there to soften the blows. I want to know that i'll be free to be who am i no matter where i am, and trust me, being who I am where I'm from is not as easy as it sounds. You live in the Bible belt there's a lot of stuff you just can't express. No one seems to take the hint, especially my family. I mean, i do alot of stuff to at least give them hints but no one seems to listen, i mean GOSH i change up my style of movies, i joined clubs, joined sites all this stuff but they never seem to really get it. I mean, if you were my parent wouldn't you at least wonder about my sudden interest in "The L word"? well whatever. I've used far to many 'I's' in this entry so i think im done now