It has been so long!

Hello darlings, the teen has returned.

Newest life things:

On the upside, i just started college and it's going swimmingly,

On the downside, me and my girlfriend broke up:(

On the even upper-er-est side, i'm back, i'm back, i'm back, i'm back, i'm back.

I'm 18 now (i didnt know if i'd updated that yet or not), and getting mysef all educated and such. it's good shit, really. well, that's all.

I am a girl...

Who sorely dislikes children. They are annoying and at times clingy. But those special times when you actually find yourself being friends with one, as rare as it is, is not so bad. Turns out they don't serve to just take up space and annoy people

(p.s. by children, i mean anyone under the age of 16, just saying)

I hate Christmas

It is shit...
That is all.

I still like Jesus though.

The Temperalness of life...

Irritates me.

I don't wish things were forever, but i wish they could last longer
Like whatever the half way mark of an eternity is...
But who can really measure this?

I know the things worth having are the ones that can't last,
but the things that are shitty are the ones that last the longest.
Like death.

Death lasts an eternity, and none of us who are living can ever
really know any different.

We hope, we pray, we work as hard as we can, but nothing is ever enough.

Nothing evades the inevitable...

Another Not-So-Pleasant Valley Monday

So, Fame The Musical is over. It went fantastic, we rocked it all three nights and the only slightly lacking show was in AEP (seminar in layman's terms). The crowd kinda sucked, but hey, i tihnk the jokes went over their heads, references went unnoticed, etc...

Next order of business

Grandmother's gotten worse. I hope that this is just the "worst before it gets better thing". I'm really not ready to lose her. i know everybody has to go at sometimes but i think if those bastards at the hospital would have actually taken care of her she wouldn't be in this bad of a state. But you know, shoulda woulda coulda's don't make any difference, we can't change the past, but we can always change the future.

So...

Grades are good, i'm sending off my application to NYU this week, and even though my fantastical "fairytale"(by fairytale i mean i never had to deal with anything real, like death), is falling down all around me, i'm just going to trust God and remember that he's a healer and that he doesn't put more on us that we can bear.

Over and out,

The almost 18 year old teen

Happy, sad, pissed and everything in between!

Finally got the role in Fame The Musical that I wanted, and even though i deserved it in the first place, I'm glad God came through like always. My crush thought i rocked my solo ("There She Goes/Fame"), so that was a plus, and i got a lot of good feedback from others, so i am all smiley-faces. Homecoming was amazing! (pictures may follow, may not haven't decided yet LOL), and the party afterward was amazing. Like the dude's loft was bitching LOLZ. but that's all pretty much, college visits coming up soon (yay, i'm getting old!) and applying for schools. Grandmother's getting pretty bad but its not due to anything she can't control, i personally think it's psychosomatic but whatever, i'm getting the hell out of here so i don't end up the same way, hence the visits to all the out of state colleges. But whatever, 8 more months in this bitch! LOL

Over and Out,

The Teen

Tired But Happy..

I have a 4.0 GPA, and at my school, that's a difficult ass feat if you have a job and want to maintain a life, but apparently it's possible. I feel really good about the things that i'm getting done these days. Made it on Senior Board (Yay me!), I auditioned for the musical (we're doing fame, which is like the best senior year musical EVER), and my crush...well, my crush is my crush. Oh and i have another crush too, hmm, the cosmic horn is a terrible thing to have....