Bye Bye 2008!

Well it's been a pretty good year, had some good times, had some bad times. I'm kinda excited about 2009 but also kind of scared because i don't know how its going to go. Hopefully 2009 yields more in the relationship department cause 2008 vas a VERY dry year. When you can count the number of boyfriends you've had in one year on one hand, that is sad. I'm not going to be like a whore or anything but i think i'll get out there more like give an inch instead of a centimeter LOL. I'm really excited about being able lie about my age for another year!!!! lol yay i'm actually 15(:( ), but since i don't look it i passed for 18 all of 2008, so in 2009 i can hopefully pass for 19 since everyone believed the 18 part. School-wise i don't know what I'm going to change since my grades aren't terrible or anything, but i guess i could socialize more, like talk to people outside of my social circle, join more stuff because since "Into The Woods" is over i really don't have much to do since GSA and the Roundtable only meet monthly. Outside of school i'm going to TRY to volunteer more like at El Centro or something and do more stuff in church because relatively speaking i don't do that much there, just show up, dance, speak on occasion and sing. Well, Here's Looking at you 2008!

New Years resoDUtion

Been thinking a lot lately about what i really want for for my life over the next year. I've decided my New Years resolution will be to be true to myself and to my heart. It feels like I've been deceiving myself about who i really am and who i want to be. I try to not hurt people and be the soft place they can land but it sort of takes a toll on you, you now, the people landing smack dab on top of you all the time. You tend to get crushed. I want to finally not have to worry whether someone is going to kill someone else just because i'm not there to soften the blows. I want to know that i'll be free to be who am i no matter where i am, and trust me, being who I am where I'm from is not as easy as it sounds. You live in the Bible belt there's a lot of stuff you just can't express. No one seems to take the hint, especially my family. I mean, i do alot of stuff to at least give them hints but no one seems to listen, i mean GOSH i change up my style of movies, i joined clubs, joined sites all this stuff but they never seem to really get it. I mean, if you were my parent wouldn't you at least wonder about my sudden interest in "The L word"? well whatever. I've used far to many 'I's' in this entry so i think im done now