School

Go-go dancing is starting to look nicer and nicer. I think i cold do it. Looking at homework and IB classes are making my life as a stripper look nice lol. So, evidentally i look like a stripper/pornstar/ something in the adult entertainment industry because i take pictures like this.

Psychology Oral...

Writing about Major Depressive Disorder. Really difficult process and almost cried just reading the stuff. Hell, i'm about to cry writing THIS. Around the time i was 13 i had a very close family member who was undiagnosed at the time and a lot of these symptoms effected that person. Just seeing all this stuff in writing to do the research for my topic really hurts because i have flashbacks on what happened at that time in my life. I thought i would be able to deal with it from a non-emotional standpoint because it was so long ago, time heals all wounds, right? but in actuality, it still hurts TERRIBLY. Anybody who is reading this that feels seriously depressed to the point of disfunction, I AM BEGGING YOU, PLEASE SEEK HELP! You are not alone. If not for you, please do it for your families because the aftermath of your episodes will last with them FOREVER. please please please please please seek help immediately

Confrustration (Awesome word right?)

I'm so confused!! grrr, roar, and fire breath. Since school started my bf has been acting weird, and like all summer he was all sweet and that bullcrap but now that he is back around all is friends he acts weird. I don't know what to do. I am not trying to sound like those dumb bitches in those stories you read in magazines who talk about their boyfriend being so different around his friends and 'oh, i'm so sad and hurt and depressed, kill me now. Fuck all that. I'm just wondering why the sudden change. and btw, we've been together for 7 months so if he was going to change up on me he should have done that bullshit in month 2 lolz. Other than that life is swell. changed my hair color (again), am now 16 and a junior! yay