Poem Of The Month

Since May has commenced i have decided to add the new poem of the month. I've kinda been in an Audre Lorde mood so here goes. BTW, when i was searching for this poem the damn 8e6 filter blocked it because of the word junkie and said "illegal drugs". Friggin' a...


To My Daughter The Junkie
On A Train

By Audre Lorde

Children we have not borne
bedevil us by becoming
themselves
painfully sharp and unavoidable
like a needle in our flesh.

Coming home on the subway from a PTA meeting
of minds committed like murder
or suicide
to their own private struggle
a long-legged girl with a horse in her brain
slumps down beside me
begging to be ridden asleep
for the price of a midnight train
free from desire.
Little girl on the nod
if we are measured by the dreams we avoid
then you are the nightmare
of all sleeping mothers
rocking back and forth
the dead weight of your arms
locked about our necks
heavier than our habit
of looking for reasons.

My corrupt concern will not replace
what you once needed
but I am locked into my own addictions
and offer you my help, one eye
out
for my own station.
Roused and deprived
your costly dream explodes
into a terrible technicoloured laughter

Boredom In AEP

Why do we have this horrible class??? I it truly beyond me why i should have to sit in a study hall for an hour and 30 minutes pretending like i'm working. IT'S BORING! and next year since i'm taking all college courses i get 2 of these damn things. Lucky me. I am so ready for this school year to be over. This is the first year since like, 4th grade that i have had to be in school after Memorial Day. I don't understand why we have to be in so long anyway because we didn't have any snow days (which didn't really bother me that much because if i couldn't drive in it i wasn't going anyway), and we didn't have any other unscheduled school absences. Roar... Speaking of school absences my school is beginning to cross the line. Like 2 days ago my eye was red and i stayed at school, which really bothered me because i looked terribly vampire-esqe, and the next day i woke up and it was still like that! so i stayed home because it turned out i had pink eye and had my mom call the school to explain my predicament. Come to find out on Thursday that the absence wasn't excused and that they were talking about not letting me go full IB because of my absences! fucking absences, are you kidding me? i'm a bomb ass student, my test scores are helping keep this damn school an academy but you want to tell me i can't take college courses because of ABSENCES! absolutely not. that's like telling someone they should come to school sick, which is exactly what i am going to do. Next time i'm ill im coming to school and sharing my wonderful pathogens with everyone.

BTW, i have 8 days till i turn 16! YAY

My Gotdamn Eye Is Fucking Red!

I am beyond upset! my fucking eye is red and i have to fucking be at school with all the damn people thinking i have the swine. I DO NOT HAVE THE SWINE, I REPEAT I DO NOT HAVE THE SWINE. my allergies have been being a bitch for the last couple of days and apparently the loratidine doesn't feel that it needs to work anymore, so basically i'm up shit creek. I'm sick of school and I'm ready to go home.

In Spanish class haciendo nada because i already finished my work YESTERDAY, and i'm bored. i'm feeling strangely ugly today. My outfit sucks but i frankly don't give a shit.

Summer starts in 3 weeks and i will be 16 next Saturday!!! Yay

Prom...

Well, Went to prom on Saturday with the BF. Kinda lame music but overall pretty fun. i thought it was going to go COMPLETELY different but oh well, not too much of a disappoint. My mom was actually going to let em stay out to one but me being my lame self was home early. my dress was hot but it actually kept riding up in the back. i think it was because of my ass. Oh well at least i have an ass!!! lolz jk. But other wise it was good. Minus the slight duct- taping down of my boobs. i mean i honestly never thought that shit would work but it did! i figure if trannies can do it, why not me!