I am a girl...

Who sorely dislikes children. They are annoying and at times clingy. But those special times when you actually find yourself being friends with one, as rare as it is, is not so bad. Turns out they don't serve to just take up space and annoy people

(p.s. by children, i mean anyone under the age of 16, just saying)

I hate Christmas

It is shit...
That is all.

I still like Jesus though.

The Temperalness of life...

Irritates me.

I don't wish things were forever, but i wish they could last longer
Like whatever the half way mark of an eternity is...
But who can really measure this?

I know the things worth having are the ones that can't last,
but the things that are shitty are the ones that last the longest.
Like death.

Death lasts an eternity, and none of us who are living can ever
really know any different.

We hope, we pray, we work as hard as we can, but nothing is ever enough.

Nothing evades the inevitable...

Another Not-So-Pleasant Valley Monday

So, Fame The Musical is over. It went fantastic, we rocked it all three nights and the only slightly lacking show was in AEP (seminar in layman's terms). The crowd kinda sucked, but hey, i tihnk the jokes went over their heads, references went unnoticed, etc...

Next order of business

Grandmother's gotten worse. I hope that this is just the "worst before it gets better thing". I'm really not ready to lose her. i know everybody has to go at sometimes but i think if those bastards at the hospital would have actually taken care of her she wouldn't be in this bad of a state. But you know, shoulda woulda coulda's don't make any difference, we can't change the past, but we can always change the future.

So...

Grades are good, i'm sending off my application to NYU this week, and even though my fantastical "fairytale"(by fairytale i mean i never had to deal with anything real, like death), is falling down all around me, i'm just going to trust God and remember that he's a healer and that he doesn't put more on us that we can bear.

Over and out,

The almost 18 year old teen

Happy, sad, pissed and everything in between!

Finally got the role in Fame The Musical that I wanted, and even though i deserved it in the first place, I'm glad God came through like always. My crush thought i rocked my solo ("There She Goes/Fame"), so that was a plus, and i got a lot of good feedback from others, so i am all smiley-faces. Homecoming was amazing! (pictures may follow, may not haven't decided yet LOL), and the party afterward was amazing. Like the dude's loft was bitching LOLZ. but that's all pretty much, college visits coming up soon (yay, i'm getting old!) and applying for schools. Grandmother's getting pretty bad but its not due to anything she can't control, i personally think it's psychosomatic but whatever, i'm getting the hell out of here so i don't end up the same way, hence the visits to all the out of state colleges. But whatever, 8 more months in this bitch! LOL

Over and Out,

The Teen

Tired But Happy..

I have a 4.0 GPA, and at my school, that's a difficult ass feat if you have a job and want to maintain a life, but apparently it's possible. I feel really good about the things that i'm getting done these days. Made it on Senior Board (Yay me!), I auditioned for the musical (we're doing fame, which is like the best senior year musical EVER), and my crush...well, my crush is my crush. Oh and i have another crush too, hmm, the cosmic horn is a terrible thing to have....

So... school has begun. Yay:-(

I am as fickle as the days are long, which, if you didn't notice, is a higly sad thing. The summer's fruitless love has come to a screetching end, kind of like a trainwreck, only less interesting to watch. I personally think it was the curse of the cosmic horn, but maybe not, maybe it's just who i was at that point in time. Who i am changes from time to time. I loved that person for so long, and maybe it was because of the situation i was in (i.e. not at school, because when I'm in school, relationships love-wise don't matter, only school does, plus i don't like walking down hallways holding people's hands and whatnot, it seems very juvenile to me but... wait, wait, wait, this tirade has gone on for much to long, time to shut up about relationships...maybe... yeah i will) This has all become a stream of conscience writing and i didn't want it to go there. but oh well, it has happened, so them's the breaks bitch lolz. I have been watching way too much of "It's Always Sunny in Philadelphia".

Life as poetry...

I haven't posted anything in a while so i figure i'll update a bit :-). My summer has basically been spent: working. That's right, i gots a job lol, and a decent one at that. Also, given the truly shitty events of my life lately, i have decided to journal again, only this time i will write the events of my life as poetry. So far this has helped me avoid the open windows and kitchen drawers... and ovens... and bathroom medicine cabinets... and any other household place that could possibly be hazardous. I have a new crush that has lasted for more than a week in the absence of seeing that person ( which trust me, is a feat for someone who is cursed with the Cosmic Horn) and i'm going out of town for a bit with the bestfwend. All work and no play make The Teen a dull girl.

Rest In Peace Lena Horne

We'll miss you, you were an inspiration to a lot of little black girls who searched for someone who looked like them in the forefront.

Stop, stop, stop for the love of God stop!

People, no more "internet banging"!

Shut up!

Oh my goodness I'm getting so sick of hearing about other people's crap. This is super about to sound really inconsiderate but sometimes i feel bad, why is no one there for me? The vast majority of the people who come to me with their shit are not there for me when I'm down. I'm really to the point now where i want to be super narcissistic and say fuck people's feelings but i can't. I just need someone who's going to be there for me other than just when they're bored or they feel like their life sucks.

Don't you hate it when...

Shitty music grows on you?

Some People Just Never Get It

A certain organization which i am involved in (which will remain anonymous, figure out who you are now! LOL I'm in so many), has some of the shoddiest planning on the planet. No notification of meetings, no nothing, and then people actually have the nerve to try to complain. That really annoys me because it is not for lack of effort on the part of some of the members, i mean, most of us try really hard, but in most cases, some more than others. It's really annoying because impromtu meetings are held in which i refuse to participate in, a, because in the "meeting" half of the damn group isn't there, b, the person holding said meetings is a sweetie but a little dim, and c, it's ridiculous! Whatever, i'm done with my grammatically incorrect rant.

Over and out,
The Teen

P.S. i wonder what i'm going to do with this blog when i am no longer a teen, shall it become "the mind of the twenty-something"? Huh...

It is annoying as hell when...

Ugly people think they are the cutest things ever. Now, i am not one to toot my own horn in any way, but i mean come on. I'll admit when i see someone prettier than me but damn, some people are the leaders of overestimation.

Just saying...

Why all the hate?

So... Our posters for Day of Silence were taken down. Not by the administration mind you, but it's suspected that they were taken by some students as a mean prank. Our club president went to the administration and asked if they had been approved to be taken down and was told that the removal was unauthorized. So, my question is, why all the hate? What's wrong with people being who they are and loving who they love? Why does it bother people that others are born different? What's wrong with deviation from the norm? Please, even if you don't agree with the cause, don't be violent and hurt others who do.

Over & Out,

Esa Traviesa April 16, 2010 "Silence is the Loudest Scream"

Aye Dios Mio...

Que ha pasado con la musica....

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J96ujGstSUw

I'm talking to someone about this..

This teacher is such an asshole! how the hell are you going to make me take a 25 point weighted quiz over shit i have not even learned? What the hell? i came to his ass multiple times and asked, "when will you be after school so i can review the material?" pero nunca me ayudó so i didn't even know the stuff that was going to be on the test. That asshole...

This shit is plain ridiculo!

So, i have to finish hella notes for English (bullshit aké book), this Chemistry substitute is talking about money( i super thought this was not econ) , and i'm surely about to start a "Never bringing my ass back to Kansas City" fund. haha, good name, no? oh! and i'm officially job-ed!

People have too much time on their hands...

i.e The NAAFA ( National Association to Advance Fat Acceptance) and the NAAO (National Action Against Obesity). Bunch of silly women who obviously aren't happy with their bodies on either end of the spectrum. Fat does not need to be accepted nor vilified, nor does thinness need to be glorified as the only body type. Be a healthy weight, gotdamnit. What happened to the days where acronyms actually meant something significant? all this bullshit is ridonculous. Skinny bitches, if you dont like the way you look: EAT! Thick Bitches, if you don't like the way you look: Eat right and exercise! Case closed.

Moroccanoil is my New Hair Crack

I love this stuff about as much as i'd love my first child. THIS SHIT IS AMAZING! it's super expensive but really, isn't beautiful hair priceless, Yes, in fact, it is. Normally i use Mizani, which is also wonderful, but i had money so i thought, hey everyone's been raving about, why not try it out. Then i saw the big $19.98 price tag and i almost shit myself. Remember, i'm a broke ass just now getting a job teenager. Either way, i was running out of mizani and needed good conditioner (nothing but salon product goes on my hair), so i took th Kierkegaardian leap of faith and bought it. NEWSFLASH: All of those who said this product was amazing were not bullshitting. It is heaven sent.

The Good Old Days

Ninth Grade. Times have truly changed....

Jesus knows....

I am in the best of moods today. i'm actually blogging (yay), and its been like, a month. Is it weird that i'm actually excited to take college entrance exams? hell i cant wait! mostly cause i get to get the hell out of Kansas, but who's splitting hairs? No one, that is who, no one.